Pound Pup Legacy

I had it all.  The nice big home, the 7 adopted children, the husband with the good job, and the good salary. 
That's the joke...
The reality is that 9 people were destroyed by adoption!  First of all the children:
The oldest was adopted as a tiny baby.  He has a genius IQ and lives in what's left of the family that was supposed to be
loving and safe.  Was he abused?  No, he was not.... but, yes he was.  He has suffered the humiliation of being
from a small town where everyone knows what his evilfather did; what his sister did; what happened to his sister;
what happened to his smaller siblings and his mother and on and on and on... THAT'S abuse.
The next was also a tiny baby when adopted and no, but yes he was abused.  He lives the same life in the same small
town where everyone knows the absurdity of his family's life.  He is an artist with great talents who suffers through
the hell of what adoption did to nine people.
The next was a daughter of 15 months who was the victim of a deranged maniac who called himself her dad.  She
has mild C.P. and mild M.R. with many emotional and mental problems.  What would her life be like if not for the
horrendous abuse by the man who was supposed to be her dad?  She lies and then she tells the truth, but no one
wants to believe her truths because of the lies.  She lives in a foster home where the people are old and insane. She
has not turned out to be the lovely young woman they thought she would be... 
The next is 18 and out on his own.  He suffered vile sexual abuse in his birth country and when puberty hit, he became
the abuser; he spent 5 years in a group home for teen sex offenders so the others would be safe.  HAW!  What a crock
of shit! 
The next was an invalid who was torn away from the only family he had every known, only to be sent to America where
he was immediately used by the older brother which, when he went through puberty turned him into an offender.  He is
now in a group home to keep the younger ones safe.  He lost his home.
The next two are 9 years old and the victims of the last one to leave.  They deserve much better than me for a mom.  They
are just two numbers on the DHS list of hundreds of children they are BOUND AND DETERMINED to destroy!  It will be
over my dead body when this happens.  They can do what they want to me, but I intend to see that the paperwork is in place for my friends to keep them (legal guardianship/Power of Attorney) if the shit keeps hitting the evil fan from an evil woman judge. 
And how did a fairly normal woman who truly wanted a family get into this shit, you ask?  By marrying a selfishly evil man who thought himself totally above all that is sacred, and even human.  This ignorant old woman lives a life of hell on
earth because of a thoughtless choice.  How many other of you are victims because of a thoughtless choice someone made?  A choice that would change your life forever?  A choice you had NO part in?  How can I ever live with what I
did to so many children because of a thoughtless choice...
Adoption DOES affect everyone involved:  Birth families are emotionally destroyed having to make such choices that change the lives of their children forever; AP's make choices that will not only change their family make-up but how
they do things from then on, which changes lives forever; agencies add another name and mark off another one, changing the lives of children forever, with only the thought of numbers.  People within families are destroyed because of impulsive thoughts of the pleasure of owning another human being!  Tiny children with NO say as to what is happening to them are
tortured with their own feelings of abandonment or being forced to choose between who they are allowed to love.
And then there sit on benches, inside courthouses, people who judge according to how their own lives have been meted out to them:  harshness metes out harshness; loss metes out more loss for others; according to how God gave children to them: crippled? then the ones with a crippled child had better do as the judge has done or else there is HELL to pay.  I have yet to see a compassionate judge who looked at the whole picture before making a decision to change a child's life forever.
My daughter who has brought false allegations is ready to have therapy with me and wants to have a relationship.  I hugged her and loved her, today, and then went into the courtroom where NO ONE wanted to hear that they had been
lied to from my professionally-trained-to-be victim daughter.  I could barely stand to see what foster care has done to this young woman; what the court system who took her from her mother has done to her, and what the devastation from horrendous sexual abuse has done to her.  And as a mother who was locked out of my daughter's life, to see that she
still loved me and wanted free from the abuse of the state who has brainwashed her into a mental wreck.... I just can't
believe how evil the world is for a child who has no say.
Yes... adoption does destroy people.