Pound Pup Legacy

Recently I have been "cut-off" so to speak by my husband. I am a 32 year old, my husband is 40, mother of 2 wonderful children, married for 4 years and dated for 9 years, trapped in a marriage that never should of been if not for the children we had and my immature thinking that "marriage would make things better". I was 19 when we started dating,my father suddenly left my family and I was desperatly looking for love from anyone, to give you an idea of my mind set. Anyway, to say the least we have always had a very disfunctional relationship, on and off for many years, cheating, lies, strippers, control, and the majority of his family hates me because im white.(did i mention mixed race relationship). While i put up with this behavior and torment for many years and allowing him to come in and out of my life because I hoped he would love me one day and we'd live happily ever after with our children, and I just knew nothing about myself or life i thought that this was the best it would get.- blah, blah, blah.
A little more history, i've worked since i was 13 in a family business which i finally left ,when i was... i would say... around 25 for a career in real estate that that my husband encouraged, claiming there was no pride or glamour in the family luncheonette business. So i pursued a career in real estate only to hate every minute of it.I was used to working around my children as much as possible to be a good mom to them and i was also used to a pay check, real estate does not provide that instantly. So i stuck it out 4 pride and ended up being miserable, and my husband claimed i was not keeping the house clean and was not selling houses but preforming sexual favors, go figure! So I put my license in refferral and started a very successful cleaning business in less than a years time, well that was a short lived success because now house cleaning was degrading to our family and again I was actually preforming sexual favors( let me tell u i was pretty grungy when i was cleaning, but anyway) So again i was forced back into real estate only to deal with the same accusations, i became moderatley successful, but i learned no matter what i did or achieved it would never be enough. So i opted to quit working all together, outside of the home( i maintain a spotless, organized home). My husband has a secure, successful career and only works 8 days a month so he is more than able to maintain a 2nd job, which is what all men in his field do, so money was not a problem with me leaving work. So after what started out to all of our friends spoken by my husband,"my wife doesn't need to work, i work 3 jobs were great" he likes to play big shot to his friends. But at home its all yelling and "you're nothing but a lazy b*%#@^- blah, blah, blah.
So to bring us to my current moment of power, i felt the need to somewhat explain our relationship, my husband has completly shut me out of all our finances for the past month, he even went as far as to somehow illegally remove his name from our bank account and let multiple checks bounce in only my name. I have since resolved that with the banks. But he doesn't even allow me the foods i enjoy eating everything is controlled by him. So I know i will need to break down and get a job even though my children love having me home full time and i am more relaxed than ever, but to get some cash and have control over my own life and my needs, i will need to do that. Oh, and his response to everything thing is "OH WELL ITS MY MONEY, I MAKE IT, I GET TO CONTROL IT" he's very arrogant.
My moment of power.......My husband is a sex maniac and wants it a lot and expects me to oblige, which usually i do to avoid a fight, but the other night when i was presented with the invitation for "some of his chocolate meat pop" i daringly declined. (ladies dont be jealous of such a tempting offer-yuck) Only to later be awoken by a strong smell of cologne, and my husband standing over me naked asking..."im naked, would u like to be naked" with this CREAPY smile on his face, again i carefully declined because at this point there was alcohol involved and he can get nasty.
So next morning i wake up feeling good, "i finally said no to him" i said to myself and it all came to me suddenly why i had said NO....... so i marched myself downstairs and said to him "listen so we can avoid anymore of the uncomfortable situations please do not approach me 4 sex, u have taken control of everything in my life, what i eat, where i can go, so on and so on, BUT the one thing u cant control and that you really want, but is all mine......, IS MY BODY, AND YOU CANT HAVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" So stop asking. -HAH IN UR FACE SUCKER!!!! Well let me tell u nothing felt better than knowing right now hes controling everything in my life, but i have one thing left and he will never be able to control that.