Pound Pup Legacy

How many have been asked, "do you think about harming yourself or others?" 

For the sake of  professional interest, and for those who wonder "but he/she didn't SEEM to be suicidal or depressed... what went wrong???" I will begin a discussion of serious importance.  It is required by law to institute Suicide Precautions to a patient who seems 'hopeless, helpless and unresponsive to medical treatment'.  The depressed patient.... how many adoptees can relate to that sense of disconnected misunderstanding?  Be certain, the response spoken by the depressed individual is watched VERY carefully... it has to be because a doctor can be held liable for a missed diagnosis!   What nurse doesn't know the importance of documenting subjective and objective information in a chart where the written orders must be followed by the letter, or there will be hell to pay by the in-house medical staff.  Coincidence in life-theme for the Pound Pup?  I think not.  [but then... I'm told I think Too Much, so what do I know?]

I have been asked that Killer Kwestion so many times by clueless moronic therapists I learned to spit-out:  "there's not a bloody day I'm not wishing I was dead, or thinking how much I would love to kill someone --  but I am a Mom... I have four children... I cannot afford to let any harm come to me or anyone else because the result would be the removal of a child's mommy.  I may be desperate, but I'm not stupid."  Kall me Kerry the Koward, afraid to kill anyone or thing because I KNOW what death of the human spirit FEELS like... but WHY would I want to hurt a child, like I myself was hurt?  What lesson will THAT teach My Children?!?  It's a lesson of human loss I'm forced to endure, alone, because no one seems to care about the after-affects adoption has on the adult adoptee.    The Shrew told me the difference between life and death in Newfoundland  is the moral teaching that abortion is a sin.  And living the carnage left through the efforts made by a naturally sadistic lying wench who insists on calling herself Mommy to her  Dearest Daughter in deed's name only, ISN'T?!?

Is there a doctor in the house?  I need a valium to go with my vodka.  STAT. ..... <cheers!> 

Any reason given to a child about the removal of a Mommy-Figure -- be it death, divorce, or  adoption - is seen as a mother's abandonment.  "If she loved me so much, wouldn't she be here to protect and save me?"  The woman who understands the loss of the natural mommy felt by a child is similar to the loss of an amputated limb is an angle of mercy, and deserves to be recognized as such.  Such is a woman worthy of the title Mom, because her mothering and nurturing style is selfless, unconditional and respectful towards the needs of someone other than her own.   However, the person who thinks phantom pain of the spiritual kind does not exist as a life-time of 'little reminders" is ignorant to the cellular importance Natural biological connection has to an individual.