Pound Pup Legacy

The adoption industry legally erased my past but it didn’t erase it from my memory.  

I had a family before being adopted.

While the adoptees have to fight to access to their adoption records, I had access to mine at 11 years, only two years after my arrival. My adopters never tried to hide it from me, there was nothing to hide. My adoption record is only a piece of shit filled with falsehoods made up (legally) by an adoption agency and my birth certificate is also piece shit made up legally in the country of my purchasers.

My mom said that the destiny united us. She saw signs of that destiny in my body so different from hers. We both had a mole on our backs and we both had a small outgrowth of skin on our shoulders. She spoke more often of the latest sign. "A destiny… on her left shoulder exactly like mine, at the same place" she repeated.

Assimilated:

 When we came back from the [Korean] church, dad asked me if I understood Korean. I replied in jest: “It sounded like Chinese”. [...]

Adoption is wonderful; you can choose the sex of the child!

When she received my picture, she said that she didn’t want a boy (my head was shaved on the picture). She called the adoption agency and told them that she asked for a girl. They replied that it was a girl. She told me she loved me immediately after knowing that I was a girl.

I don't know if there exists such thing as an "illegal"adoption.  My adoption was done legally, through a legal, ethical and well known adoption agency. I became a legal orphan at the moment someone holding the (legal) authority wrote the word: "abandoned" on a (legal) paper. It coudln't be more legal than that!

I laughed while watching the video  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N6WlNspQgpM
 I wonder what would be my A-mother's reaction if she was still alive. 
This video made me think of my A-parents (particularly my A-mother) during my first months with them.

I was 9 years old, clean and well trained,  from Korea (my A-mother said later that she was sure that I was 6 years old). Here are some of laughable moments (laughable now but it really wasn't funny at that time)

I finally decided to blog here. I already hold a blogspot but this one will be different.
I will use this blog to talk about me - only me, not others - my personal thoughts about adoption, my questions that I've never asked to my loving-shitty-adoptive-parents, my anger/hurt for being sold to strangers put into adoption to another country, my anger/hurt for being bought adopted, my hurt for being brainwashed assimilated, etc.